M.I.A
Hey everyone, I know it's been a while but I am back. Ideally, I would like to come back here and promise you that I am here to stay and that I won't disappear again but in all honesty, I don't know and I can't make that promise, sorry. Like everyone else, I have no idea what tomorrow will bring.
It has been such an eventful year so far and it's only February...I think that has kind of set the pace for 2019, fast and full-on. But would I change that? No, not at all. Have I had a mental break down? not yet. For me, that's two huge thumbs up - am I actually growing up? maybe, maybe not. The only difference this time is that I took my time and made decisions that were right for me.
The biggest change for me so far was moving from London back to my home town of Barrow-in-Furness, yes, for those who are reading this and don't know I am now no longer located in London. How do I feel about this change? surprisingly enough, I am calm and positive and I am just looking forward to what the future will bring. The main reason for this move is that I am now in a new relationship and I am extremely happy, I have found a person who understands me and cares for me unconditionally and I can not ask for more than that.
I don't want to delve into my personal life too much but sometimes it's a kind of a catharsis getting things off your chest and into the world. I am not ashamed of my recent decisions so why should I hide them? The most profound lesson I have learnt over the years is that your happiness is the number one priority, never let anyone else make you feel any different.
However, the one thing that has suffered through all of this is my health, I have been very ill during the last few weeks and this has really affected me both physically and mentally. I was in crippling pain, was being violently sick and I couldn't even leave the house. I seem to be over the worst of it now but along with the physical side effects I was mentally drained and frustrated with not being able to exercise or even leave the sofa.
For many people exercise has a purpose, that purpose could be losing weight, building muscle, increasing stamina, but, the main reason for me, nowadays, is for my mental health. The gym is a place I can escape to, I can spend time alone and think about the day ahead, plan events, think of the things I need to do and just have some 'me' time. Of course, the benefits are increased muscle, weight maintenance and an influx of serotonin, not to mention the many other benefits that come with exercise.
Anyway, back to my point, 2019 has been busy, I am finally starting to settle down and from now on I will try and redirect my focus to this blog, my health and exploring new places. I am finally content, who knows how long that will last but for now, I have a huge smile on my face every morning and night and I don't want that to change any time soon.
I hope your 2019 has been good so far and continues to get better, with any situation you can always look to the positive and strive for the solution. Don't be afraid of change because sometimes it is needed - sometimes it's for the better.
It has been such an eventful year so far and it's only February...I think that has kind of set the pace for 2019, fast and full-on. But would I change that? No, not at all. Have I had a mental break down? not yet. For me, that's two huge thumbs up - am I actually growing up? maybe, maybe not. The only difference this time is that I took my time and made decisions that were right for me.
The biggest change for me so far was moving from London back to my home town of Barrow-in-Furness, yes, for those who are reading this and don't know I am now no longer located in London. How do I feel about this change? surprisingly enough, I am calm and positive and I am just looking forward to what the future will bring. The main reason for this move is that I am now in a new relationship and I am extremely happy, I have found a person who understands me and cares for me unconditionally and I can not ask for more than that.
I don't want to delve into my personal life too much but sometimes it's a kind of a catharsis getting things off your chest and into the world. I am not ashamed of my recent decisions so why should I hide them? The most profound lesson I have learnt over the years is that your happiness is the number one priority, never let anyone else make you feel any different.
However, the one thing that has suffered through all of this is my health, I have been very ill during the last few weeks and this has really affected me both physically and mentally. I was in crippling pain, was being violently sick and I couldn't even leave the house. I seem to be over the worst of it now but along with the physical side effects I was mentally drained and frustrated with not being able to exercise or even leave the sofa.
For many people exercise has a purpose, that purpose could be losing weight, building muscle, increasing stamina, but, the main reason for me, nowadays, is for my mental health. The gym is a place I can escape to, I can spend time alone and think about the day ahead, plan events, think of the things I need to do and just have some 'me' time. Of course, the benefits are increased muscle, weight maintenance and an influx of serotonin, not to mention the many other benefits that come with exercise.
Anyway, back to my point, 2019 has been busy, I am finally starting to settle down and from now on I will try and redirect my focus to this blog, my health and exploring new places. I am finally content, who knows how long that will last but for now, I have a huge smile on my face every morning and night and I don't want that to change any time soon.
I hope your 2019 has been good so far and continues to get better, with any situation you can always look to the positive and strive for the solution. Don't be afraid of change because sometimes it is needed - sometimes it's for the better.
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